ReBloom: From trauma to trust in sex, love and society

Created by Rachael Maddox

Soulful stories and practical guidance for sexual and emotional healing after trauma. Let's revive our collective garden, together.

Latest Updates from Our Project:

over 2 years ago – Fri, Dec 22, 2017 at 07:52:35 PM


WE DID IT!!!!!

Ahhhhhhhmazing HUMANS! We. Did. IT. We put our hearts and cash and efforts and devotion together, and we funded this BOOK. We said YES to our personal and collective sexual healing. YES YES YES YES YES.

It feels like no mistake that we fully funded this Kickstarter the morning after winter solstice – the longest, darkest night of the year. It's official... we are now WELCOMING THE LIGHT.

I'm completely overjoyed and so incredibly grateful, honored, and THRILLED. (For real, I can't wait to nestle away and write, write, write!) Ah! THANK YOU to every single one of you who backed and/or shared! You each made this happen!

I'm over on Facebook Live doing the 10 Hour Telethon with epic sex educator friends from 9am to 6pm PST today! Join us for the celebration! We're giving away all kinds of sexy soulful stuff! We're talking about wild things! We're drinking champaign and doing trauma sensitive yoga! #secretbadgirl #wholeness We're playing songs and dancing it all out! I'd love to celebrate together.

Thank you. I'm so grateful. And so so so excited to write this book for you.


xox, Rachael

PS!–We've added a $5,000 stretch goal. I keep saying that this book is gonna be The Artist's Way for Sexual Healing. I think that needs a workbook. What about you? :)

over 2 years ago – Fri, Dec 22, 2017 at 01:55:36 AM

Ahhhhhhhh! We're at at $35,636!!!

Thank you amazing humans!!!

I have a feeling that this baby's getting funded tomorrow DURING the 10-Hour Telethon.

Ahhh! Buying champaign as prep! We gunna CELEBRATE together ON AIR.

Speaking of which! Here's the line up for tomorrow. We're going from 9am - 6pm PST on Facebook Live. Can you even believe this? 

  • Lisa Nagel, my amazing VA, is coming on. We're going to share our work-love story, give a lil advice about how to build your own business dream team, and then...Lisa's going to do a card reading for the book! Live! Eeep! 
  • Natalie Baack and I are going to jam on the over-lap between weight, body image, trauma and PERMISSION. 
  • Sarah Magdelena's going to offer a Tarot for the New Year giveaway and we're going to jam on pussy crystals, world peace and reclaiming love in age of patriarchy. 
  • Kelsey Gustafson is going to lead us in some awesome trauma sensitive yoga. We might also jam on unshaming our Secret Bad Girl-ness. ;) 
  • Dave Booda (the dude from the video who's not actually my boyfriend ;) ) and I are gonna share ideas for men who want to help end rape culture
  • Allison Moon's gonna talk about Girl Sex 101. And interior book design. Because she's multi-talented like that. 
  • Amber Leitz and I are gonna jam on SEX MAGIC as a form of self-healing, creation and self-actualization. Hot. 
  • Jimaneka Eborn's gonna share about teaching inclusive, holistic sex-ed for teens – and by the end you'll prob want her to teach it to you, too! 
  • Kalah Hill will teach us how to activate our Pussy Consciousness and embrace our deepest knowing as women. Tune in to get turned on. 
  • Lola Medicine Keeper will give counsel on how to choose a safe ceremony experience in the realm of shamanism and medicine journeys
  • Reid Mihalko's going to offer tools for making repairs post-consent violations... and other awesome #sexgeek stuff. 
  • Bitsy Burbon of More Than "No" is going to enlighten us about the overlap between KINK and trauma healing
  • Eleanor O'Brien is going to perform a poem from her upcoming show, "Sex We Can!" An Erotic Uprising. And giveaway something juicy at the end... 
  • Jeanette LeBlanc and I are gonna talk about how we became soul-fam from doing the Secret Bad Girl Kickstarter together, then share some crucial tips for SAFELY writing through the hard stuff. 
  • Marissa Correia is coming on to share womb wisdom and the connection between sexual healing and pelvic health
  • Erin Brown is going to read poems from her recent incredible book, Sovereign. She also has a baller deck that goes with, that she'll pull cards from for us all! 
  • Ann Nyguen will come on o share her sexual healing journey... and I'm gonna have her school you on how to make cool instagram stories, too. :) 
  • Jodi McLaren (my bestie!) is gonna join at the end and sing songs because duh. 
  • My parents might make a guest appearance because why not?? My mom is gonna giveaway some pretty jewelry. #momlove Maybe I'll ask them awkward questions about my career? My dad is an insanely funny human so hopefully he shows up! Head to the Facebook event to get the exact times of special guest appearances!

In the meantime, here's a little video with a final request for support!


xoxox, Rachael

Together is an incredibly beautiful place to be.
over 2 years ago – Thu, Dec 21, 2017 at 02:23:25 AM

Gorgeous humans,

I cried gratitude today. 

As of this minute, 225 of you have put your heart, cash and care into getting this book published. Countless more have shared their platforms, shared my words and shared the link to this Kickstarter. Truly, I cannot thank you enough. I am so so so grateful.

I told a friend recently that I've heard so many sad stories that they rarely make me cry anymore. I feel empathy for sure. But tears? Much more rare.

What gets me crying these days is the healing. The miracles. The togetherness. The devotion to co-creating something new. THAT inspires me in the most ancient sense of the word – it blows holiness into me. It melts me. It moves me.

Thank you so incredibly much. I couldn't do this without you. And I'm so grateful I get to do this WITH you. That together, we are putting something into the world that will help thousands of people reclaim a long lost connection to pleasure and power that they so honestly deserve. Thank you for letting it start with you. You deserve it.

With 4 days to go, we are in the FINAL stretch. Kickstarter is an all-or-nothing crowdfunding campaign, meaning we've got to raise the full $40,000 to get to keep any of it. As of this very moment we're at $29,873!

We can totally invoke this miracle. :)

Here's our game plan. (Spirit + Strategy = Our best shot.)

  • For those of you who are woo: light a candle, close your eyes, and imagine HUNDREDS of humans all across the world squealing at their computers when they see the news that this Kickstarter is fully funded! Hang out in the joy of the fact that YOU helped create a MASSIVE ripple of healing magic across this planet. Feel the gooey goodness of this beautiful success. SMILE.
  • Then... after your 30 second ritual, write something heartfelt and honest about how you'll feel when this Kickstarter gets fully funded, and invite people to help make it a reality. Post that on social media with a link to the Kickstarter. Send it in an email. Text it to a bestie. If each of us inspires just ONE other person to buy the book, this Kickstarter will be fully funded. (PS–Tag me so I can thank you personally!)
  • Next, consider increasing your pledge. Do you have a friend who could really use this book, but might not be emotionally ready to buy it? Want to get the book AND dance with me in San Diego? How about Write Yourself Free? Wanna toss some more cash into the Scholarship Fund? Consider upping your pledge by a little or a lot, depending on what your heart and pocketbook say. 
  • Last, join me on Friday for a 10-Hour Telethon on Facebook Live. What?! Yes. I've invited dozens of my friends to join me to talk about all things sex, trauma, healing, and more! We are going to give away prizes (lots of card readings & new years magic), dance, eat and pee together, do Q+As, play songs, spit poems...the whole nine. Here's the Facebook event. I'll be going from 9am - 6pm PST. You can share that with your peeps, too! It's gonna be mega fun. (Will post a schedule with all the guests on Thursday!) Also, if you're in San Diego and want to come over, PLEASE DO! Message me – I need in-person support, good vibes, and company. I'll order lunch & dinner. :) 

That's a wrap!

I love you!

Thank you!

You melt me and empower me all in one. 

Bless bless bless. Couldn't be more grateful.



144 Earth Angels :: Personal Thank You's <3 (WE MADE IT OVER HALF-WAY!)
over 2 years ago – Wed, Dec 20, 2017 at 11:23:42 PM

Hello beautiful humans,

Sending over a heartfelt THANK YOU to you each for backing this beautiful movement. 

WE'RE HALF-WAY FUNDED with 9 days to go!!

To be totally honest, running a Kickstarter is an emotional rollercoaster. It reminds me a little bit of riding a bicycle over a mountain (yes, I've done that). Your body gets so exhausted that eventually there's nothing left to do but surrender everything to the Great Mystery, then watch yourself in a sort of other-worldly-way, make it over the top. 

I do believe we're going to make it (though one can never be quite sure!). 

But for now, today... I just wanted to say thank you to each of you for showing up and showing your support for this movement of whole self reclamation and sexual healing. 

You've each touched my heart so very much. So, without further adieu... I've written you each little thank you notes:::

(Those of you who signed in as "Guest" I'll just be thanking in fun ways. Those of you who I don't yet "know", I'll be thanking you soul to soul.)


1. Jodi, thank you for being number one in my life in so many ways, all the fricking time, including now. I love you.

2. Cindy, thank you for your forever sisterly solidarity and tender awesome courage.

3. Tam, thank you for your brave brave heart.

4. Sarah, thank you for your generosity, soul, enthusiasm and power.

5. Skaja, thank you for the way you champion, the way you let yourself lean in.

6. Amanda, thank you for your curiosity and rigor, your love that fuels it all.

7. Tanya, thank you for taking a chance on me. For doing it for you.

8. Mara, thank you for teaching so soulfully along side me. And for your gorgeous oracle cards that salve my heart daily.

9. Rasa, thank you for your true-blue age-as-old-as-time friendship.

10. Stephanie, thank you for letting your heart sing, for working with the children, for letting yourself be held.

11. Marie, thank you for your gentle yes, your readiness, your courage, your determination.

12. Chelsea, thank you for your SISTERHOOD. solidarity, like whoa. gotchur-backness.

13. Anna, thank you for being such an aligned megaphone on integrity and healing.

14. Leo, thank you for your rawr, your library of helpful tricks...and all the magic.

15. John, thank you for your love of lineage and your willingness to trek through time to reclaim something healthier and holy.

16. Guest, thank you for saying a generous yes. 

17. Guest, thank you for standing on the side of healing.

18. Jeanette, WOMAN, thank you for being so many things to me: muse, friend, get-er-done go-to champion, catcher of words, homegirl. 

19. Guest, thank you for wanting to shake your booty with me!!

20. Ashley, thank you for living on (and tending to, and being nourished by) land I lived on (and tended to, and was nourished by) for a long time!

21. Dori, thank you for your heart-melting kindness – I can feel it from here.

22. Tonya, thank you for knowing how to keep safe that which is sacred.

23. Amma, thank you for letting yourself still shine bright, even now, even after, even when.

24. Guest, thank you for wanting my voice in your earholes, for trusting that my stories will be worth it. :) 

25. Katie, thank you for letting the tears fall when they must.

26. Judy, thank you for being in it to win it, for your song and your soul and your sisterhood forevermore. I love you.

27. Dan, thank you for being an awesome Kickstarter supporter – and for your hunger, courage and heart.

28. Tom, thank you for your incredibly needed work, for forging a path few have walked.

29. Guest, thank you for wanting us to win.

30. Sarah, thank you for letting yourself lean in. 

31. Elizabeth, thank you for the long-time love and the otherworldly light.

32. Caitlin, thank you for what you hold in your hands with great care.

33. Rachelle, thank you for your true-blue e-mail responses and heart-and-soul growth.

34. Julie, thank you for staying in, for walking through, for not giving up.

35. Guest, thank you for still shakin your hips even though it can be scary sometimes.

36. Guest, thank you giving such heartfelt hugs.

37. Eleanor, thank you for pimping me out to your peeps, your heartfelt solidarity, your good good work in this world.

38. Nancy, thank you for your dream of a better world.

39. Guest, thank you for your ecstatic sublime poetry.

40. Leslie, thank you for your dream seeds, the way you plant them and tend to them so devotedly.

41. Jane, thank you for walking through that fire, for rising from the ash.

42. Deb, thank you for those moments when you turn all that outward love inward and let yourself receive your own medicine.

43. Guest, thank you for trusting the little things are worth something big.

44. Shannon, thank you for your pristinely soft and wildly devoted heart. Your love feels so good.

45. Julie, thank you for singing in the shower. 

46. Natalie, thank you for your alchemy – your own, and that which you give to the world. For taking a stand. For changing the direction of things.

47. DAD!!!, thank you for all you give and all you don't give. It's the perfect balance of supportive and empowering. I love you. 

48. Cherie, thank you for letting yourself be found again – for trusting that holy light is safe to re-emerge.

49. Brian, thank you for standing with us so strong and true.

50. MOM!!!, thank you for being here now, for being the flesh that bore me, for FaceTiming in the middle of the night when I'm sick. I love you!

51. Jennifer, thank you for making your own light in the dark in small and sacred ways that travel far across the stars.

52. Sunni, thank you for your huge ripple of love and generosity... for letting torn things mend... for surrendering and opening. 

53. Yoji, thank you for your radical yes, for stepping into it, for softening.

54. Lionessa, thank you for your longtime support and ever-strengthening majesty. You are a gorgeous soul to see.

55. Marc, thank you for being with me!, for being with yourself!, for finding love in tender places.

56. Ismilealot, thank you for putting your love in the places that matter.

57. Tigre, thank you for your gentle and wild, your steady and silly, your whole soul power.

58. Ann, woman. Thank you for letting me walk so many of your worlds with you - traveling through life together is a blast and a blessing. and thank you for your forever and ever devotion to women rising together.

59. Tom, thank you for loving the women in your life so well.

60. Mindy, thank you for baring your insides for me (and us) to read, for walking your soul path so honestly and beautifully.

61. Jaime, thank you for spending time with the rocks and the trees (I know you know what I mean...).

62. Diana, thank you for being such a fiercely loving friend.

63. Guest, thank you for believing we can do this together.

64. Guest, thank you for putting your money where your soul wants you to go.

65. Harmony, thank you for telling me you'd back this project and then backing it – for your epic smile and open spirit.

66. Annie, thank you for the radically healing work you do – in your own life and in the world... for uplifting the unheard voices.

67. Skye, thank you for coming home to the sweetest secret of all – you are good, you belong, you're worth it all.

68. Simon, thank you for holding your hands out, for opening your palms, for catching things that are falling, for receiving the blessings.

69. Rachel, thank you for laying down on your back and letting yourself remember in your body what your mind seemed to forget.

70. Francesca, thank you for staying so close to your body. 

71. Diana, thank you for letting your fingertips graze the softness of your flesh, your heart, your truth.

72. Aethyric, thank you for hearing spirit's call and following it so fully.

73. Tracey, thank you for giving so many women a chance to say yes to themselves in ways they might've never thought possible. Holy advocacy. 

74. Tyson, thank you for your respectful energy, your honest heart, your powerful truth, your poetry. And a lot more that doesn't have words.

75. Guest, thank you for letting your body come all the way back to life.

76. Elaine, thank you for still believing in magic. :)

77. Bgannin, thank you for always wondering how you can give more. I see you, generous one.

78. Rose, thank you for staying close to the earth, for remembering the truth of Her.

79. Elizabeth, thank you for too many things – mostly, the alignment. And...the epic queen shit.

80. Guest, thank you for letting yourself hear and follow your hungers.

81. Mahyuddin, thank you for sprinkling solidarity and cash money across planet earth.

82. Starmaru, thank you for breaking so many rules to be true to your liberated soul.

83. Amanda, thank you for your fierce fight, your soft trust.

84. Jamie, thank you for being so honest with yourself, and for educating the next generation about to be better with each other. <3

85. Heather, thank you for letting their lies go so you can stand firmly in your truth.

86. Guest, thank you for wanting to sing all the magical Shabbat prayers with me!!!

87. Guest, thank you for hearing the call in your belly, for listening, for saying yes.

88. Chance, thank you for being such an epic pillar of love for our girl Steph and so many others, I'm sure.

89. Mikaela, thank you for your sharing so generously the magic you find everywhere you go. (PS–I'm still sending that package your way!)

90. Christina, thank you for holding on to hope. 

91. David, thank you for dancing us all the way home.

92. Guest, thank you for being part of our movement.

93. Jennifer, thank you for your prayers that heal.

94. Kim, thank you for magic 17, for staying with me, for staying with you so truly.

95. Mallory, thank you for being a brave advocate, a courageous life-chaser, a true-soul liver.

96. Tim, thank you for your cle attraction, your ready and willingness, your beautiful heart.

97. Annie, thank you for still believing in magic.

98. Grace, thank you for speaking truth to power, for opening so vulnerably, for all your solidarity and love.

99. Suzanne, thank you for giving your gifts to the world. For not holding back.

100. Karen, thank you for your true-blue sisterhood through years and fears and storms and seasons. I love you. 

101. Guest, thank you for letting the sun kiss your face especially on those days when you've lost all hope.

102. Sarah, thank you for reminding us all to keep breathing. It helps. You encouragement makes a difference.

103. Guest, thank you for wanting to feast and drink and sing and be merry!!! Thank you for saying yes to lineage and ritual.

104. Allison, thank you for your epic hugs. I can't wait to experience this in the flesh. :)

105. Guest, thank you for invoking miracles of presence everywhere you go. Your attention feels like angel medicine.

106. Shiopei, thank you for your courage to lean in, your willingness to speak out, your heart that hasn't given up.

107. Linda, thank you for your VOICE that ripples with ancient beauty and divine wisdom. 

108. Beth, thank you for your quiet yes to the impossible dreams of desire in your soul.

109. Guest, thank you for trusting my words as your guide... and for taking this brave step forward.

110. Jose, thank you for standing strong with us. For believing in a better world and way.

111. Kori, thank you for being a safe space for so many. For extending your magic love back in to yourself.

112. Jill, thank you for gifting yourself small bits of pleasure, over and over and over. It matters.

113. DEMMAAAAA, thank you for crawling out of that basement into the most epic, powerful, potent light around. And for singing my praises so enthusiastically :). I love you forever and ever. 

114. Elissa, thank you for letting your body still move and groove and choose deep and utter aliveness, even now, even after all this. ! 

115. Martin, thank you for your devotion to shifting this culture together... for being part of our grand new earth.

116. Meghan, thank you for opening your heart to a new way, for letting yourself take a chance on true healing.

117. Michelle, thank you for being such a powerhouse of possibility, for channeling true love through your body.

118. The Selkie Delegation, thank you for your laughter. For remembering to infuse the world with light, even now, even when we could all go so very dark.

119. Leah, thank you for pouring so many cups of tea... for warming hearts with your care, for caring for yourself just as well.

120. Guest, thank you for fueling this movement with resourced power. I feel your commitment all the way from here.

121. Guest, thank you for knowing that every little bit counts. And for counting. Because you care. 

122. Guest, thank you for giving a woman a chance to heal with a little more ease, a little more magic and serendipity on her side. 

123. David, thank you for those cozy warm socks, the conversations that opened doors in my world, and saying yes to being part of the healing. <3 

124. Guest, thank you for wanting to make magic in a dark world. You did. You do. You matter.

125. Guest, thank you for choosing Light. 

126. Lola, thank you for ALL YOUR BLESSINGS everywhere you go, and for traveling long and far with me. I love you, sister.

127. Eva, thank you for the way you twirl like a little girl because it's never too late to return home to innocence.

128. Chris, thank you for what you do!!! I'm so so glad to be in this movement together, and can't wait to support your creations in the world as well.

129. Laura, thank you for your bravery on SO many fronts... for giving your gifts, for holding onto hope, for saying YES to this wild ride. With you!

130. Jessica, thank you for giving yourself the sweetest hugs and care!

131. Kit, thank you for your incredible laugh and epic light-casting.

132. Shane, thank you for saying YES to dancing with me! For believing in the power of your body.

133. Susan, thank you for adding your magic to our epic pussy revolution. It's an honor to walk beside you.

134. Amanda, sistahhh, thank you for your epic belief and trust in me, and for all the ways you love so wholeheartedly.

135. Alan, thank you for tossing your love in the bucket.

136. Josie, thank you for believing in a better world, and most importantly, that you're allowed to receive more of it.

137. James, thank you for co-creating peace on earth.

138. Nicole, thank you so much for trusting in the mystery even when it's hard.

139. Guest, thank you for trying again. I think it'll be better this next time around. <3

140. Carly, thank you for letting yourself lay down in the truth of it all and weep and receive and pray and say these words, "I love myself, even now." 

141. Jennifer, thank you for that night at the temple and your beautiful unforgettable soul.

142. Jordan, thank you for going all in, for dancing through the messy middle so truly. I believe in you all the way.

143. Anne Marie, Thank you for feeding your true hungers healthfully... for insisting that you're worth it. 

144. Golden!, thank you for being with me for soooo long, and for letting yourself say YES to the tenderest, truest wants. <3 And for so many other things. 

YOU HUMANS ARE SO POWERFUL. Thank you for helping me birth this book into the world. I believe in the medicine it will provide, and I'm so grateful I can produce it thanks to your incredibly generous support.

We have 9 days left to raise just under $20,000. This is 100% doable. 

Behind the scenes, I've been talking to many women who will join either the Sex After Trauma Sisterhood or School (so bigger pledge amounts will be coming in over the next few days).

But what I'm wondering is this: would you be willing to send the link for the Kickstarter to 5 friends for whom it might make a great difference?  Perhaps a friend who experienced unwanted sexual attention, who struggles with intimacy, who's been through the worst of it? Or maybe just sharing on social media with a heartfelt reason why you care?

If each of you has just 1-3 friends back the Kickstarter at $30 each, we'd raise about $10,000 quite quickly. 

I believe in us.

I believe even with all the ugliness in the world, there are epic amounts of light, and we can make miracles with it. We can.

Thank you again from the bottom of my heart.


Let's finish this baby out strong.



PS–You can go right here for some handy images and starter sentences for sharing the campaign.

The messy middle of alchemy.
over 2 years ago – Fri, Dec 08, 2017 at 11:32:36 PM

You know the spot. The one where you're a third of the way through some dark portal you don't quite understand. Maybe you're in a dry spell. A sad lull. A frantic panic because the magic isn't happening no matter how bad you want it.

So often, my clients will be one third of the way into their reclamation (not that these things have clean timelines or anything), and with fear on their faces, they'll ask me, "How long will this take?" "Has anything even changed?" Then we'll pause and I'll say, "I know. It's a brutal bitch and shouldn't be so hard, but it is." And then I'll ask them what they can be proud of themselves for. What's changed. What's different. And they'll have so much to report – way more than they even realized. And they'll know they can't turn around now; that they just have to keep going toward the light with fierce faith and insatiable hunger. 

Sometimes we have to fight for new life. 

Other times, we have to remember that the tunnel is long and we must rest on our journey.

A few days of this week I was that frantic forgetful client. Not about sexual trauma – but about the Kickstarter. My lizard brain got the best of me and I couldn't stop spinning in fear, even though logically and even spiritually, I felt utterly full of faith. I was under a spell of subconscious, irrational, panic and exhaustion. 

The feeling was familiar – that emergency brain take-over that happens when we're overwhelmed. The hazy fog that turns our whole lives into anxious mush until we reconnect to our natural blueprint of health. So I called up Jodi to help me do just that. 

"Jo, I'm complete mush over here. Will you hold space for me as I re-make a self-care list? I don't need pep talks, just to get my body back in order." "Of course, Rach." And then she did that awesome, joyful, earth-angel Jodi thing she's so darn good at doing: quietly believed in me.

The next day, I turned off my phone and computer. I lit candles in the kitchen, played classical music, and cleaned out the bottom drawers of my refrigerator. I took a long walk, went grocery shopping, had heart-to-hearts with the Lyft drivers, made chili on the stovetop and had a friend over for tea. 

This is how we survive the messy middle of alchemy. We move at human speed. We become candle light. We clear out that which has been rotting at the bottom of our psyche, taking up invisible space. We reclaim our right to not always fight. We walk in nature. We rest without alarms. We give in to the dark where it's quiet and calm. We let ourselves feel held by it instead of running from it. 

We embody trust, instead of just thinking it.

Sweet friends, 

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for all you've given to this Kickstarter already. I'm so grateful to be together and truly trust we're gonna make it to our goal.

If you backed the Kickstarter because you're in your own messy middle and are hoping this book can be your guide or reminder of how to get through, know that I'm pouring every story and strategy I have into this book for that very reason. It sucks to be in the messy middle alone.

Speaking of... I believe in you. Quietly. With tender joy and unwavering faith in my heart. 

We've got this.

Big love. Endless thanks. Here's to our collective alchemy.



PS–Is there a small and doable way you'd feel great about moving this Kickstarter along? <3 has useful, easy sharable images and links. Pass 'em along to a friend for whom it might change everything. Two weeks to go!! Thanks again, wonderful humans. Youda best. xo

PPS–We've made it over $12k! Woo hoo!