ReBloom: From trauma to trust in sex, love and society

Created by Rachael Maddox

Soulful stories and practical guidance for sexual and emotional healing after trauma. Let's revive our collective garden, together.

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The Unexpected Depth in Delays
about 1 year ago – Mon, Jul 15, 2019 at 08:22:24 PM

Hi beautiful humans,

The other week, at the end of a client session as we were standing at my front door saying our goodbyes, my client asked as a random aside...

By the way, why is your book taking so long to finish?

I sigh-smiled, paused for a moment, then told her the truth:

You know, I've had to live the material all the way through. I'm not delivering this book from my head. It's a book of lived wisdom and inquiry, felt-sense knowing and felt-sense not-knowing. Ideological blahblahblah is easy. Transmitted essence takes time. Also... I've started over three times.

We laughed. She understood immediately because we'd been moving through that very process together – the one of felt-sense understanding over intellectualized pretense. The one of iteration and depth over superficial "completion". She'd learned it's not fast. It's deep.

So many of us didn't grow up in a culture that makes room for developmental growth, for wisdom to form at it's own honest pace. We rush ourselves into roles of pre-emptive expertise. We've lost so much of the long-term apprentice model that was once the path to earned and embodied expertise.

I'm understanding more and more what Audre Lorde so famously wrote – the master's tools will never dismantle the master's house. The rush of Collapse Culture will never deliver the depth needed for the new world we're co-creating together.

ReBloom is a book with big aims towards personal and collective healing, liberation even, after personal and collective trauma... in sex, in love, in community. I'm devoted to embodying its medicine as I create it, as opposed to writing it at a shallow, rushed or traumatic-to-me pace.

When I first launched the Kickstarter for this book, I didn't have that awareness. I was still trying to operate from the speed of Collapse Culture. I thought everything I needed to write was already formed inside of me. But my body and spirit (which I'd learned to listen to well enough, thankfully) wouldn't let me. The medicine of the work I'd been studying and teaching worked on me... slowed me down.

Last week, I had the chance to talk with esteemed intellect Daniel Schmachtenberger about my book. I told him it's taking a much longer time to write than I'd expected, for the reasons mentioned above. His response was both helpful and affirming.

You know, Sex at Dawn and The Catcher and the Rye took 10 years to write. Harry Potter took 5 years to PLAN before ever putting fingers to keyboard. We don't need more quick fix surface-level books, he whispered, blue eyes piercing with clarity. We need more depth delivered with devotion.

I exhaled big thanks.

On to you – 

Because I care about your trust and appreciate your support, let me loop you in with some of the slow and meaningful ways I've been devoting to ReBloom over the last 18 months:

  • I've written and re-written 80% of the book. (240 page manuscript so far...)
  • I've done thorough multiple-part interview processes with 7 "ReBloom Role Models" about their personal post-traumatic growth stories, most of whom have different backgrounds and intersecting identities than mine. 
  • I've explored the publishing route, had meetings with high-level authors and publishing people, sought lots of council about the best way to get this medicine out into the world.
  • I've woven a colorful, animated allegory throughout the book that makes the whole picture more digestible and potent. 
  • I've made altar cards that refine the wisdom of the ReBloom Model (PDFs right here if you want to get an early peek at the magic!!), and a Coherence Practice has emerged, with which one can awaken the 7 Natural Blueprints of Health through movement and mantra.
  • I've envisioned the interior design that will feel like art, blessing and miracle to hold.
  • I've been studying the influence of systemic oppression on physiology, as well as consulted with a few experts on cultural trauma. 
  • I've trained 10 coaches in the ReBloom Model, featured the specifics of this material at workshops for over 20 people, and taught it to a dozen 1-1 clients. Through teaching and facilitating, I've learned even more about this body of work, and what I've learned has woven back into the body of the book. This material is so alive.

I am so grateful I get to invest in this book and body of work with rigor and devotion every day. And you will absolutely benefit more from the extra time it's taking. There is an unexpected depth in delays, and I'm celebrating that the delay of ReBloom has only strengthened its medicine. Thank you for trusting the timing with me.

Just yesterday, I finished running a 4-day ReBloom Your Sexuality workshop. The 10 women who came received so much about how to heal their relationships to love and sex by embodying the ReBloom Archetypes. We spent most of our time connecting to Worthiness (the Soul Seed) and Sovereignty (the Gatekeeper)... the ability to know what we need and then receive those needs safely, the ability to honor and protect embodied and emotional limits. When we build conditions of health personally and interpersonally, the natural emergence of amazing sexuality can bloom. Sometimes without even focusing on sex! There is so much on this topic in ReBloom, and I can't wait to share it with you.

Again, you can view and download the Altar Cards that go through each Blueprint and Imprint right here, if you'd like to dive into the medicine of this work today.

Thank you, thank you, sweet brave souls, for your patience and your trust in my creative process. For honoring the natural emergence of this book. For your continued excitement and love! I am so so grateful for you... and wildly excited to birth this book in the most divine timing.

Here's to reblooming the whole damn garden...together.



ReBloom is going someplace unexpected!
over 1 year ago – Wed, Mar 13, 2019 at 11:24:27 PM

Hello beautiful Kickstarter Backers!,

We're nearing Spring Equinox and in my dream world I'd be writing to let you know that ReBloom is about to hit the press. But that's not the case! The reality is, this book has a SOUL OF ITS OWN that no matter how much guiding or steering I've tried to do – it takes the wheel. It's in charge.

The great news is, ReBloom is going someplace unexpected. Someplace I kept feeling it was supposed to go, but was too nervous or timid to take it. You can probably guess where that is, but for now, I'm refraining from saying the words publicly. 

Instead, I have an ask. And it's this:

Would you imagine the medicine of this book (one of story and soul and so much significant healing) getting planted into the best possible soil where it can fully thrive and give its gifts? 

Would you trust with me the divine timing of its bloom?

Thank you. So much. Really.

As far as the writing goes... here's a bit of an update!

photo by my incredible genius editor, Andrew Leonard
photo by my incredible genius editor, Andrew Leonard

Last week, I did a 4-day book writing immersion that was true and utter soul-nourishment.

I didn’t go away to a cabin in the woods by myself.

I dove into a village. 

I deleted my apps and blocked email and social media on my computer.

I dropped into present place and time fully... without having to be a self-care monk.

I wrote for 3-hours non-stop early in the morning, candle-light flickering as the garden-light grew outside my window. 

Then workshopped with my editor over lunch, took a long walk through the crisp graveyard, wrote a bit more in the afternoon.

At night, I co-explored the archetypes, the allegory, the heart and poetry of all things ReBloom with three 60-somethin' personal development junkies over dinner, red wine, grief and desire.

It was a dream come true experience.

Not because the book got finished in record time or my tangible goals were reached. (We're at a solid 88% draft. Was aiming to finish in-full.)

It was a dream come true because the experience was ALIVE. Animated. Cooperative. Connected.

And this connection – that happened in-person, with candle light and meals, rhythms of togetherness and community – added more value to the medicine of ReBloom than any top-paid blahblahblah ever could've.

ReBloom got breathed into deeper Being. I got breathed into deeper being.

...I think in this day and age with so much time spent holding our breath staring at screens, we could all use more time connected, in the flesh, breath-to-breath, sharing meals, ideas, grief, desire.

If you're longing to be together in the flesh, would you hit reply and let me know? I'm planning something really special in the coming months, and I'd love to know where you live and if you're hungry for in-person ReBlooming.

Okay... thank you again for your continued support and trust in this process. 

ORGANIC. ReBloom wants an organic, sustainable, regenerative birth. Really grateful to be honoring that.

Big love.